I have realized I am ever analyzing my life in ever greater-circumference circles from higher altitudes, a fractalized pattern of analyzing and quantification. I look at my own behaviors, my mind, my thoughts, the world in general, and I am continually developing what I think to be the highest order of cohesive thought and explanation of things, until I sit there for long enough that I realize there's another step back I could take, a higher altitude from which I can look down on everything and see where I formerly was. I am gathering more and more information and always feeling like Im finally looking at it all collected before me until i realize I need to take another step back and reexamine. Its crazy really.